A Second To Breathe...

Okay, so I started this blog last semester in EDUC 2230, not because I wanted to, but because I had to. Then, I started the next semester and took five English classes... because I am an idiot. However, I was never really able to come back here, on account of no time thanks to all my essay writing.

But now, the semester is almost over. Thank God for that... seriously, thank you God. :)

Well, I really don't have time to spend writing on a blog right now either. I have a huge paper for Dr. Pauley due on Wednesday, and if I can pull off a 95%, I'll get an A in the class. However, the trend in her class has been mostly B's and the occasional C. It is killing me, and I really want to do well... I am just so burnt out...

Also, next week I have Dr. Piontek's test, and Dr. Milliken's all essay test. I don't think either one will be difficult, I just really don't feel like studying for them! This weekend I have basically locked myself in my room only emerging for bathroom needs, and food. I look like an ogre I am pretty sure, and if I hadn't been starting into the computer screen for hours and my eyes were't blurry I would be able to make my face out in the mirror across my room. Perhaps its a good thing I can't! :)

Achievements this weekend however: I finished Professor Spradlin's take home final, Dr. Holtman's nine page take home final, and even Dr. Piontek's final paper.

Upon writing all of these I decided I was, and have been in, a major war with Microsoft Word this entire semester. Every paper I have written in a mini battle. If I get a A, I dominated the battle. B's, I won the battle. C's, I faired decently in the battle. Anything else, I didn't have to adress thankfully. However, I am getting ready to stage another battle for Dr. Pauley. The final battle. It is a hard paper though. But after that the war will be over... for a couple months a least. Wow... school is almost over until the end of August. Again: Thank you God. :)

Hmm... now that I have vented properly about finals week, let me vent about my life.

This has literally been the hardest semester of my life. Thanks to awesome professors I have made it through however. But really, life has been so hard lately. I don't really know how I am handling it. Papaw is basically on his deathbed, and everytime I see him he looks skinnier. He weighs about 100lbs. now. It is so sad to watch a family member die right before your eyes. Wow... the final stage of cancer you say? Okay... Wow...4 months to live? Okay... I guess...

Not only that, it is making my whole family crazy. Mom is so stressed out, and as I little grouchy. Totally understandable. However, admist this situation, and the hardest semester of my college career, I am also a little grouchy, and she is quick to point that out. Sorry Momma... I'm a little tense, don't take it personally. :)

Anyway, yeah, life is hard right now. I am s0o0o broke. I have actually never been this broke, with this many bills in my life. However, I really don't have time for a job with college and Microsoft Word battling me daily! >:P

Oh well, I am going to make it through the semester it seems. God has given me a strenght I really didn't know I had. Again: Thank you God! :) LoL...


Well, I have probably wasted enough time procrastinating the final battle with Word... I better go now. :(

Hopefully when this semester ends I can relax finally. I will be working on my book soon, might I add! I am pretty excited, and laugh if you will, but I am totally doing it, and it is going to be epic! "No, I'm Not a Carnie, I Bathe at Night"... totally happening! Maybe I will write some chapters on here... Hahah... that'll be fun...

Well all, I really should go now. Nature calls and if I don't leave this room to feed my stomach, I do believe it will feed on me.

--Much love to all...